The OLD FiReCrAcKeR

No really, i do. If there were a medal you could earn for sucking at life, i would be the recipient for a few years in a row.

I wish i could rewind life to last year. I'd be happy and doing my internship right now. Probably hanging around dispatch or doing a ride along. I miss those days. I miss that PD. I miss the people. God I miss working there.

Why did i have to screw up? Why do i suck at life? I don't know why i miss it and why i loved it so much... but i do know why i sucked at it. I think i'd be better now, but try to tell that to anyone, nobody will hire me. not as an officer, not as a dispatcher, not anyone at all. I'm sorry i had to take that many credits to finish school, I'm sorry i got mono... i'm sorry i suck at life.

I don't know where the road ahead is going to take me. but if i follow my heart it's right here, and nowhere else... which kind of sucks since i don't have a job and i have so many bills...

help me. hire me. hug me.

i guess i'll just sit here alone until something comes up.

**wraps up a big bundle of love and ties it off... leaves said bundle of love on your bed for you to come home to**

from your little
Amy :)