The OLD FiReCrAcKeR

Yay! It was the single most longest week of my entire life. If I had to listen to legal woman too one more class I would die. My sympathy goes out to the 105th Basic guys that have to listen to her on a daily basis. (cuz i'd be done!). So we finished and had to get 100 on everything and I did... and the practical was so freakin' easy that when i was done they said i did everything right and they didn't have any suggestions for me. Which is cool i guess.

Anyways. So they also told us that drinking is bad and not to do it as a stress reliever. This is why as soon as we finished class we packed all our shit up and headed to Northern VA and DC to go to Georgetown and party at a bar on the water with Tess, Danny, and one of his friends. LOL. Yeah... we were quite funny that night. Also, i WISH I had a camera... we saw a police cruiser getting towed. CLASSIC!

So yesterday was the FF challenge in Manassas... and i can't imagine doing all of that in full gear (or even at all without full gear on). WOW. I guess it takes a hell of a lot of training to do that.... i don't think that I'd be able to train that much to do it. Crazy. Then my arm started really killing me, which it still does today, and i think i have carpal tunnel or something else like that... and I can't go get it looked at for another month. So if you have painkillers please send them to me. :)

Last night we partied with the 105th Basic boys who will be officers at HPD in 12 weeks. Fun times... there was a campfire and everything but i felt like i was getting beat up by mosquitoes and then we almost couldn't find our way out of there... lol. All in all, it was a fun weekend.

I've gotta work tomorrow, and write a paper for Dr. Frysinger for my research today and work on it throught the week. That's due the end of this week. Yuup. I can't wait for the research part of this project to be completely done. So... hopefully this grant will be extended! We'll see!

This week too I did testing for Augusta Co. EOC. It was really random and not too hard except I spelled a few words wrong on it... i think i spelled rondezveu like rondeveoux. Oh well. Anyways it'd be cool to work there as P/T if I could. (and then I would get to do Fire/Rescue like I originally wanted!). Yayness.

Alrighty... enough randomness. I work daylight for the next few days... so if I don't update that's why. I'll be off on Wed.

TTYL!

Not much noteworthy has happened in the past few days. I'm in motorcycle class until tomorrow night, so that's taken up a lot of my (VALUABLE) time. Time I could have spent chuckling. Anyways. It ends tomorrow but I'll be in Wyers cave at police academy with my buddy all week.

Oh. I have a correction to make to the last blog... I incorrectly referred to Joiner as a "dum dum" when really the clown refered to him as a "ding dong" (like a doorbell... or the hostess rolls).... so get it right!!!

Like I said, not anything is new in my boring life. I decided to get a tatoo of a malteese cross with a rose through it, either on my leg above my ankle or on my shoulderblade. Haven't decided where yet, or a design yet... but I'm gonna do it soon.

So everyone knows that i am a quote-whore. I LOVE quotes so much. So in my websearching for stuff I came across this poem...

DON'T
Don't care so much for me, I may get used to it.
Don't come so near to me, I may not be able to detach from it.
Don't put so much faith in me, I may not be able to handle it.
Don't touch me the way u do, I may not be able to get over it.

Don't become a part of my life, Coz without u, I won't be able to live it.
Don't make me fall for u, I may not be able to fall out of it.
Don't come into my life, If you have to leave one day.
Don't give me the hope, That it's forever you're gonna stay.

Coz love is an emotion I won't be able to hide.
When love isn't reciprocated with love, It hurts deep down inside.
Don't start something that I won't be able to end.
Don't make me believe That you can be more than a friend.

Coz at the end of it all, I don't wanna hear you say,
That, "I'm sorry," "but I never felt the same way."


Whoa. That's all i have to say about that. But yeah... WHOA. Not going to say any more about that. I don't need it. Better off.

and here's another one for fun... :--)

"Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you {chuckle} until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end."
---Unknown

You're...
My Friend,
my companion,
through good times and bad
my friend,
my buddy,
through happy and sad,
beside me you stand,
beside me you walk,
you're there to listen,
you're there to talk,
with happiness,
with smiles,
with pain and tears,
I know you'll be there,
throughout the years!

Love to my LL our P-diddy!

Not me (or Amanda), aparantly. Last night I worked 11p-7a, then stayed up and went to Shoneys (which btw, was REALLY shitty), then hung out with some of the cool paid guys at co40, and then... BURN CAMP! Yay, it was a lot of fun! I mean, yeah it was sad to see all those kids, but it's a really neat thing for them to have a place to be and to just be "kids." Next year we're gonna be counselors there. But yeah, it was a great experience. (even to just see officer mike in the postcard bikini :-P... hahaha!) Joiner was even called a dum dum by a clown. LOL. And Karen almost lost her arm to the snokone machine. Overall a great (long) day!

Came back here... we passed out. slept until joiner woke us both up around 8, got our pictures, and then went to the station for a bit for pizza (which they all ATE before we got there), and hung out. Almost got to go on a call. but didn't. blah.

Chuckled much. And that's about it! Now I'm totally ready for bed.


To JMU kids: GO HOME. Yeah, I like some of you back here. But the majority of you can leave and go back where you came from.

And if you're a guy, take my buddy's little bit of guy advice. If there are any guys that would do that stuff... i mean, i'm sure you exist... grace me with your presence at some point. Spare the bullshit and lies. I'm perfectly content being single right now, and until the right one of you comes along that can treat me like that... and you'd have to prove it to this one... i'll be waiting.

goodnight!

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.
Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life...

"Portrait of a Friend"

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain, nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.
--Unknown

Without friends, this world would be uninhabitable.

and we LOVE to chuckle... we're a big ole chucklin' family!

Ok. I've neglected this thing for a while. Amanda and I went to richmond to get away from here... left at 3am on Sun. morning and didn't come back until like 2am on wed morning... lol. It was a fun time and we chuckled a lot and didn't want to come back.

but... we're back.

(and we have a video of us on the x-treme skyflyer too!)


So since i've gotten back all i've been doing is working and sleeping. Yay. I need lots of sleep.

Working more today, 1500-0300. And it's supposed to rain a lot tonight. Yay hurricanes. I just don't wanna pump basements all weekend. i'd be ok if we didn't have to do that. :--)

Time to clean some more and get ready for work. Maybe I'll update more later. maybe not. You just never know with me. ;--)

I guess I should update this thing... being as it has been a while since my last post.

Not a whole lot has changed, I think. Well, I'm now a member at Co. 40 (read: NOT r. 40)... been hangin' out a lot down there. And hangin' out a lot with my new buddy too since we both hate guys right now.

I think I'm just going to be single for a while again.

Anyways.

So today I got offered my full time job. Yay! :-D So now after the 29th I can injure myself and I'll have healthcare coverage. Score. ;--)

Had lunch today with Lisa, went baby shoppin'... aww so much cute stuff! and yet so depressing at the same time. LOL. We're all pathetic.


But it's a special kind of pathetic. :--)
And to those who are here with me... ::hugs:::

i love my friends!!

I hate feelings. I wish you could just can them and get rid of them.
And they're so damn hard to hide. damn.

::hit me over the head with a sledgehammer and kill me::
(not really... just metaphorically)

anyways. lots of work this week. Yay for keeping busy...
when i'm not at work, you can probably find me at station 4. It's my new home (away from home)

anyways....

The worst feeling you'll ever feel is sitting next to the person who means the world to you knowing that you mean nothing to them...

No, I'm not strong. I'm the weakest link.... Goodbye.