The OLD FiReCrAcKeR
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Thoughts.
So. It's about 2:30am on a Thursday morning... and I'm still awake. lots of thoughts racing through my head. enough so that i'm gonna write about it here.
Billy Joel: And So it Goes
"In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows..."
can that be any more of how i feel?? wow... so if you haven't figured it out, i still have an inner fear of rejection... if you knew the past, i guess you'd say it was understandable... and it screws me over... a lot. it's dealing with the past, and living on for the future. and... well... i haven't felt this way in a while (try about 4 years). i wish i could be normal.
"Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself."
~Leo Buscaglia~
maybe i've been holding myself for too long. maybe not enough? but, the only things in life you regret are the risks that you don't take.
i guess it's a risk worth taking... i just don't want to get hurt again... i don't think i would, but... well... i guess it's a trust issue.
Accept the things
To which fate binds you and
Love the people with whom fate
Brings you together
But do so with all your heart.
~ Marcus Aurelius ~
here's to trying... and i promise i will.
Billy Joel: And So it Goes
"In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows..."
can that be any more of how i feel?? wow... so if you haven't figured it out, i still have an inner fear of rejection... if you knew the past, i guess you'd say it was understandable... and it screws me over... a lot. it's dealing with the past, and living on for the future. and... well... i haven't felt this way in a while (try about 4 years). i wish i could be normal.
"Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself."
~Leo Buscaglia~
maybe i've been holding myself for too long. maybe not enough? but, the only things in life you regret are the risks that you don't take.
i guess it's a risk worth taking... i just don't want to get hurt again... i don't think i would, but... well... i guess it's a trust issue.
Accept the things
To which fate binds you and
Love the people with whom fate
Brings you together
But do so with all your heart.
~ Marcus Aurelius ~
here's to trying... and i promise i will.
:: posted by Laura, 02:24
