The OLD FiReCrAcKeR

I have to share this conversation I had tonight with one of my *oldest* JMU friends (we've known each other since band camp! Go Guard!!)

jmu hip POs: and it's pretty hard to like open up and want to trust someone like that again, cuz you don't want to get hurt
JMUdreamANGEL: YEA it is
JMUdreamANGEL: majorly hard
JMUdreamANGEL: you can talk about doing it easily, but actually doing it is sooooooo hard
jmu hip POs: word.
jmu hip POs: I've been single for 3 1/2 years because of it
JMUdreamANGEL: and that's a pretty long time to heal
jmu hip POs: yeah
JMUdreamANGEL: I hate it when I feel like I'm chasing a guy and they SEEM to like me but then never really call or anything
jmu hip POs: yeah, i hate that too
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JMUdreamANGEL: yea for real it's SO good to know those things...and it is SO wrong for ppl to intentionally hurt you
JMUdreamANGEL: I've been there, and it is mind boggling and beyond painful
jmu hip POs: you don't have to tell me about it, it totally is
jmu hip POs: and to think that people actually do that to other people and don't really thing anything other of it
JMUdreamANGEL: yep.
JMUdreamANGEL: they're just CRUEL.
JMUdreamANGEL: and 100% selfish
jmu hip POs: I didn't want to date for a LONG time... hence where i am now
jmu hip POs: yeah it is
JMUdreamANGEL: b/c you have to be to do things hurtfully intentionally and not care all that much
JMUdreamANGEL: yea, it's good to be single and just be your diva self for awhile !
JMUdreamANGEL: I think it's essential to any girl
jmu hip POs: or guy. yeah, it totally is! it gives you time to collect yourself
JMUdreamANGEL: FOR real
jmu hip POs: but i think i'm ready to have someone again. i just want to know that whomever that is, understands what it's like and won't hurt me. and i wouldn't know how to tell them, but they should know that i wouldn't hurt them either... cuz i know what it's like
JMUdreamANGEL: and then you can add a guy to your already awesome life rather than letting one be the center of it
JMUdreamANGEL: yea for real
JMUdreamANGEL: totally an essential thing to know and RESPECT in a relationship
jmu hip POs: exactly
JMUdreamANGEL: yea for real...it's so much easier when you both understand where the other is coming from completely like that

So at least one person is on the same page as me! Yeah... I'm gonna stop that conversation right there.... and finish with another funny part (on getting a new dog):

JMUdreamANGEL: I just got him today from the shelter
JMUdreamANGEL: :-)
jmu hip POs: awwww!!!
JMUdreamANGEL: he's sooooooooooo cute
JMUdreamANGEL: JUST what ya need to replace a guy :-D
JMUdreamANGEL: hehe
jmu hip POs: hahaha definately
JMUdreamANGEL: they'll never invite other girls over, they won't lie to ya, and they'll be SO excited to see you everytime you come home

TOTALLY true. I want a dog. But i have to see where I'm living first!

So today Tess and I went to dry run 3 times. Yes, 3 times. First I wanted to go tape me off roading before I took the camera back... then tess wanted to go with Allen... then we went back with mike. So... yeah. That's all i did today. drive through the mud!!

AND the scariest thing ever happened today. A WOLF spider came into my truck while i was driving it. I stopped, and it was a good thing i threw it into park, because i screamed like crazy and somehow ended up on tess's lap. ::cringe:: THAT was the scariest and nastiest thing ever. Wow, i hate spiders... ::cringes again and shivers::

And i decided that the perfect end to my forest wedding would be to get in a jeep or something and go off roading out of there. Arrive at wherever the reception would be with dirt all over it. (but not my dress ;))

hehehe.

Anyways, got the video if you wanna see it, and some awesome pics. Will post them later on my new website:
http://Signal96.moonfruit.com/

But that's probably only my trial website. I have 14 days left. Just wanted to upload something. I'm looking for a free server now!

And that's all for tonight. Remember to keep your windows up when driving through the mud! ;) Peace.