The OLD FiReCrAcKeR

But the thing is, i definately don't hate the player.... not at all, and that's the entire issue. because i should! i think. So, I sat down and I tried to think of reasons why I shouldn't feel the way I feel...

1)After what's happened to me, and my parents, I don't have the best outlook on the whole romantic side of things. Yeah, i do what i have to do, but didn't expect anything to come from anything...
2)I vowed to give up on the above after the whole situation I went through... and saw happen to my parents. so this is scary for me, to even consider something of this magnitude.
3)The person doesn't even know. I mean even when he'll read this he probably won't associate it with him. Guys are like that. DENSE. Or guys, that's what we percieve you to be. (just FYI) I know, you could be playing a mind game too. Why do humans complicate things?

and i'm 99% sure that this is all in my head. because this person would NEVER say anything to me. Unless he reads this and says something... RIGHT. But it's not like i haven't made posts before regarding this subject. Yeah. It's one of those things he won't even associate with him.

So far, Sam, Tess, and a few other people said i should tell said person how i feel. Lisa says I should wait for him to say something first. Yeah. I dunno. I'm happy with things going slow. And right now they're not really even going. so... yeah.

For those few weeks though... they were the happiest I was in a while. Probably didn't mean anything to him, but at least I drew in some happiness. I just wish it were more. perhaps sometime it might be. not like i'm going anywhere.

Like charlie brown said... nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.

And since i'm not feeling too great (a little too much drinks @ alstons w/the crew... and my Sgt... yeah), I think i'm gonna curl up with Tigger. I can always count on Tigger...