The OLD FiReCrAcKeR
Friday, July 30, 2004
When you fall this hard, it takes time to catch your breath again
Ok, so maybe I was the stupid one to think that it could have been something. But I guess there's never any harm in asking. And talking. At least I know now... even though feelings don't just go away... as much as you wish them to. (And damn it i want them to go away, NOW).
It's making me not myself anymore. At least I know now. It just hurts. A lot.
And just knoeing that I'll never be able to explain these feelings or justify them- will hurt for another long period of time.
If there's one thing that's important in anything: it's communication. Talk early. Know where you stand. This coming from someone whose job it is to facilitate communication. You'd think that something like this wouldn't happen to me... but it did.
And don't lose one of your good friends to something like this.
I don't regret the fun times. Hell, I had more fun in that two month time frame than I had had in a LONG time. It would have been a dream come true to continue it. But, since i can't, it will remain in dream status.
I've gotta get running and pack some more stuff up and completely move out of Southview today.... and then I have to work at 15:00. (which is better than sitting around here and thinking.)
If anyone, ANYONE is around here in h'burg... please let me know and hang out with me. I really need some good friends right now.
Later...
It's making me not myself anymore. At least I know now. It just hurts. A lot.
And just knoeing that I'll never be able to explain these feelings or justify them- will hurt for another long period of time.
If there's one thing that's important in anything: it's communication. Talk early. Know where you stand. This coming from someone whose job it is to facilitate communication. You'd think that something like this wouldn't happen to me... but it did.
And don't lose one of your good friends to something like this.
I don't regret the fun times. Hell, I had more fun in that two month time frame than I had had in a LONG time. It would have been a dream come true to continue it. But, since i can't, it will remain in dream status.
I've gotta get running and pack some more stuff up and completely move out of Southview today.... and then I have to work at 15:00. (which is better than sitting around here and thinking.)
If anyone, ANYONE is around here in h'burg... please let me know and hang out with me. I really need some good friends right now.
Later...
:: posted by Laura, 10:23
