The OLD FiReCrAcKeR
Saturday, September 18, 2004
friendship and trying to stay awake...
This is a post for my friends. This year has been a great learning experience for me... and for those of you who know me and my way of life- it has always been to live life without regrets. Because every experience you have, whether positive or not, has potential to be learned from. Where would we be to know what is happy and good, if we didn't have the bad and sad times? Life is like a ferris wheel: it goes around and around, sometimes you're on the top, sometimes on the bottom (and sometimes the ride breaks down for a few and you gotta get it repaired)... but the circle always goes on- it is neverending . Where there is darkness- there is light.
Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.
Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.
Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.
In this past year I have truly learned the value of friendship. I can honestly say that I probably would not still be here in harrisonburg if it were not for the most recent friendships that I have made. In July, I wanted to leave here so bad. Everything felt wrong, and I really had nobody to talk to about anything. I was a wreck... so I went and had a girls night out with a friend.
And that night ended at EOC... with the start of another new friendship... and now, a slew of new friends! Every one of you that I have met and confided in in the past few months has meant a lot to me. The Ccameraderie that I have seen and been a part of, and am becoming a part of, has made me want to stay here... I only hope that it stays the same in the coming months.
If I left you out... I'm sorry... and it's 3:35 am so cut me some slack.... leave me a message and i will add you if i accidentally left you out
Lyn: for listening to me, dealing with me on a regular basis... and not sending me back to the adoption agency ;)
Karen: for not giving a shit about the FBI
The Girl Who Does Our Training (Formerly Known As April): you can always borrow my pens... and i will skip town with the cinnamon pretzel
Lisa: Caramel will always be chewy, the top will always be best, and yes- make it supersize!
Chad: For listening to me rant online about stuff and for cheering me up at 3-4am
Opie: for the hugs and listening to me... and letting me ride on the engine (giving me a freakin' dot!) ;)
Tess: Even though you're in NoVA.... you'll always be one of my best friends. Don't block the box!
Kristen: I don't talk with you often but I love our random phone calls about childhood memories and how we can just pick up the phone or meet and it's just like where we left off...
Joanne: Alls I have to say is tequila shots- cabo wabo poster. You and me. It's a date!
Justin Lyoli: you'll always be my canoli brother... thank you for introducing me to the brotherhood in the fire department and I will always love you forever- FDNY!
And most of all, my twin and other half:
Amanda: see our poem below... if i hadn't met you, I don't think i would be here still in harrisonburg... you've helped me through a lot, and we both think with our hearts too much... it is a good thing, but also hurts us- I'm glad though that we have each other to lean on, and I couldn't do it without you... and i know you know that. LL's forever. (i don't think DeeDee will let us live that name down)
and of course I couldn't forget to mention our pimp daddy:
Joiner (i could never forget you love!): the abuse, it's all a sign of love. ;) NO mater how much we show it... we love you! Although, if we ever catch you cheating again... ;) You help make us chuckle
I love you ALL!!! Thank you for everything and for being there...
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For everyone:
A Simple Thank-You, My Friend
Into the dim lit, bare walls of my world,
You entered, bringing light and life to me,
The vivid colors, painted with a swirl
Of wit and charm, of personality,
With tender care, you added comfort, warmth,
And images that line the now bright walls.
I look upon them fondly, bringing forth
A thankfulness that you walk in these halls
With me; our friendship has become a part
Of my world now; it has its special place,
Within my being, life, and in my heart,
Your name hangs right beside your smiling face.
Rememb'ring just how drab these walls had been,
I have to thank you for the light, my friend.
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For my LL ;-)
I feel like I've known you forever
Although I only met you sometime this year
But our friendship will remain forever
No matter what shall cross our paths and hearts
The best thing that's ever happened to me
Is finding a forever friend like you
You're there to listen, help, and talk to
And best of all, I know I can confide in you
You’re my rock, my strength,
My conscience and my faith.
Forever will I turn to you
That’s what us LL’s do!
Some say the best love is one sprung from friendship
Because those men… they seem to lie!
What will lead us to the future?
Hold my hand and we’ll fly high.
Time leads us in this direction
Friendship and love are intertwined
Forever you will remain my friend
Because without you, I would not survive.
Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.
Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.
Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.
In this past year I have truly learned the value of friendship. I can honestly say that I probably would not still be here in harrisonburg if it were not for the most recent friendships that I have made. In July, I wanted to leave here so bad. Everything felt wrong, and I really had nobody to talk to about anything. I was a wreck... so I went and had a girls night out with a friend.
And that night ended at EOC... with the start of another new friendship... and now, a slew of new friends! Every one of you that I have met and confided in in the past few months has meant a lot to me. The Ccameraderie that I have seen and been a part of, and am becoming a part of, has made me want to stay here... I only hope that it stays the same in the coming months.
If I left you out... I'm sorry... and it's 3:35 am so cut me some slack.... leave me a message and i will add you if i accidentally left you out
Lyn: for listening to me, dealing with me on a regular basis... and not sending me back to the adoption agency ;)
Karen: for not giving a shit about the FBI
The Girl Who Does Our Training (Formerly Known As April): you can always borrow my pens... and i will skip town with the cinnamon pretzel
Lisa: Caramel will always be chewy, the top will always be best, and yes- make it supersize!
Chad: For listening to me rant online about stuff and for cheering me up at 3-4am
Opie: for the hugs and listening to me... and letting me ride on the engine (giving me a freakin' dot!) ;)
Tess: Even though you're in NoVA.... you'll always be one of my best friends. Don't block the box!
Kristen: I don't talk with you often but I love our random phone calls about childhood memories and how we can just pick up the phone or meet and it's just like where we left off...
Joanne: Alls I have to say is tequila shots- cabo wabo poster. You and me. It's a date!
Justin Lyoli: you'll always be my canoli brother... thank you for introducing me to the brotherhood in the fire department and I will always love you forever- FDNY!
And most of all, my twin and other half:
Amanda: see our poem below... if i hadn't met you, I don't think i would be here still in harrisonburg... you've helped me through a lot, and we both think with our hearts too much... it is a good thing, but also hurts us- I'm glad though that we have each other to lean on, and I couldn't do it without you... and i know you know that. LL's forever. (i don't think DeeDee will let us live that name down)
and of course I couldn't forget to mention our pimp daddy:
Joiner (i could never forget you love!): the abuse, it's all a sign of love. ;) NO mater how much we show it... we love you! Although, if we ever catch you cheating again... ;) You help make us chuckle
I love you ALL!!! Thank you for everything and for being there...
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
For everyone:
A Simple Thank-You, My Friend
Into the dim lit, bare walls of my world,
You entered, bringing light and life to me,
The vivid colors, painted with a swirl
Of wit and charm, of personality,
With tender care, you added comfort, warmth,
And images that line the now bright walls.
I look upon them fondly, bringing forth
A thankfulness that you walk in these halls
With me; our friendship has become a part
Of my world now; it has its special place,
Within my being, life, and in my heart,
Your name hangs right beside your smiling face.
Rememb'ring just how drab these walls had been,
I have to thank you for the light, my friend.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
For my LL ;-)
I feel like I've known you forever
Although I only met you sometime this year
But our friendship will remain forever
No matter what shall cross our paths and hearts
The best thing that's ever happened to me
Is finding a forever friend like you
You're there to listen, help, and talk to
And best of all, I know I can confide in you
You’re my rock, my strength,
My conscience and my faith.
Forever will I turn to you
That’s what us LL’s do!
Some say the best love is one sprung from friendship
Because those men… they seem to lie!
What will lead us to the future?
Hold my hand and we’ll fly high.
Time leads us in this direction
Friendship and love are intertwined
Forever you will remain my friend
Because without you, I would not survive.
:: posted by Laura, 03:54
