The OLD FiReCrAcKeR
Saturday, October 09, 2004
La te da.
Another day, another dollar... and a lot of dollars if you're working a day that's 12 hours of OT. Which was what today was for me. I'm not complaining about the money, and in fact it was a very slow and quiet day (i can say the "s" and "q" words now that I am at home).
Last night I went to the Mall after work and got my halloween costume for the costume party. It's called heidi-ho dress, and for those of you who went to Ireland/Germany with me this New Years and remember those German dancers (or see those cukoo (??) clocks with the dancers in them).... it looks kind of like that. I don't really know how to describe it other than that it's a really short skirt. :-O It was either that or the Dorothy costume from Wizard of Oz... i need longer hair for that. And a toto dog. So I went with the first one. If you come, you'll see it.
Even Burnie approved of the costume. :-)
Other than that, it's just been work. Wednesday I cleaned the townhouse with Amanda, and Thurs. I ran a lot of errands. A LOT of errands... and cleaned some more. By the way, if anyone has a weed eater or lawn mower that they could possibly lend me to cut my grass (i've a truck and can come get it)... PLEASE let me know. I'm getting desperate and can't afford one. :-/
Blah. I guess I'm kind of in a blah mood because I've to go a week without my best friend (i know, we're inseperable so how is this going to work!), and because I'm waiting on a phone call to figure out what the heck is going on in my life. (yes, a phone call.) lol.
Anyways... Amanda leaves tomorrow for the Bahamas and I don't know what I'm gonna do for the next week! On Sat when she gets back we're going to a banquet, which should be fun. I can't wait for that, this week needs to go by fast... I mean what are Joiner and I do do? I guess we'll find that out. ha.
And now to the other stuff. I've learned a lot about friendship in the past year, and it's many diversifications and supposed "meanings"... and I've made posts about friendship before but I'm gonna do it again because some people do not understand the concept of friendship.
When you find a friend that you can confide in, one that you can share anything with, and one that you know truly loves and cares for you, it's an amazing thing. It doesn't happen often, and many times we're not up to trusting someone, especially when we have been hurt by those who have called themselves our friends in the past. I have been told for example that I trust too many people and think with my heart and that is why I have been hurt so much. But there's no life to be lived if you say that you cannot trust another person or love.
Now... people who start rumors and things, I suppose they have nothing better to do than talk about other people's lives and exploit them. Why this phenomenon occurs, I have yet to determine. What is to be gained by starting a rumor? I also have yet to encounter the answer.
I have the personality type where I can keep my feelings contained (though it is REALLY hard for me to do), and other (most) times where I can flare and flash them out at you. (hence, the FiReCrAcKer). Most of you all know that. When I don't have anything to say to a person, I just don't say anything. Silence. Nada. I don't start rumors about others, and don't spread things around that shouldn't be spread around. People deserve their privacy, and unfortunately in a field like Police/Fire/Rescue... secrets/privacy and gossip are best friends.
While I don't approve of it, I really don't care if you talk about myself and my best friend. If you have an issue with one of us or both of us, for godsakes tell us, and don't go spreading shit around. It's immature. I don't know if you know what it's like to find a friend that you can tell anything (and everything... lol)... but when you do, it's an amazing thing. I guess that most people poke fun at situations like this because they do not know what it's like and haven't ever experienced being in a friendship like it. The rest of ya'll... i dunno.
I just know that rumor-spreading has gotten to a point that is way out of hand... and that ya'll need to know that Amanda and I... we don't take buLLshit. (there, there's your LL).
And another thing. I've been reading this book that Kelly gave Amanda and she gave me called "He's not that Into You"... and it is so true. If I had read it earlier it may have opened my eyes to things that were not working. It probably would have saved me from getting hurt again this summer. And this Spring. And every other relationship that I have been in. Dating is truly like a dance. Partners switch, and it's the same basic thing... that is until you find the perfect partner who knows how to sweep you off your feet and into your future. The one with whom you cannot dance without.
If you find him for me let me know...
Last night I went to the Mall after work and got my halloween costume for the costume party. It's called heidi-ho dress, and for those of you who went to Ireland/Germany with me this New Years and remember those German dancers (or see those cukoo (??) clocks with the dancers in them).... it looks kind of like that. I don't really know how to describe it other than that it's a really short skirt. :-O It was either that or the Dorothy costume from Wizard of Oz... i need longer hair for that. And a toto dog. So I went with the first one. If you come, you'll see it.
Even Burnie approved of the costume. :-)
Other than that, it's just been work. Wednesday I cleaned the townhouse with Amanda, and Thurs. I ran a lot of errands. A LOT of errands... and cleaned some more. By the way, if anyone has a weed eater or lawn mower that they could possibly lend me to cut my grass (i've a truck and can come get it)... PLEASE let me know. I'm getting desperate and can't afford one. :-/
Blah. I guess I'm kind of in a blah mood because I've to go a week without my best friend (i know, we're inseperable so how is this going to work!), and because I'm waiting on a phone call to figure out what the heck is going on in my life. (yes, a phone call.) lol.
Anyways... Amanda leaves tomorrow for the Bahamas and I don't know what I'm gonna do for the next week! On Sat when she gets back we're going to a banquet, which should be fun. I can't wait for that, this week needs to go by fast... I mean what are Joiner and I do do? I guess we'll find that out. ha.
And now to the other stuff. I've learned a lot about friendship in the past year, and it's many diversifications and supposed "meanings"... and I've made posts about friendship before but I'm gonna do it again because some people do not understand the concept of friendship.
When you find a friend that you can confide in, one that you can share anything with, and one that you know truly loves and cares for you, it's an amazing thing. It doesn't happen often, and many times we're not up to trusting someone, especially when we have been hurt by those who have called themselves our friends in the past. I have been told for example that I trust too many people and think with my heart and that is why I have been hurt so much. But there's no life to be lived if you say that you cannot trust another person or love.
Now... people who start rumors and things, I suppose they have nothing better to do than talk about other people's lives and exploit them. Why this phenomenon occurs, I have yet to determine. What is to be gained by starting a rumor? I also have yet to encounter the answer.
I have the personality type where I can keep my feelings contained (though it is REALLY hard for me to do), and other (most) times where I can flare and flash them out at you. (hence, the FiReCrAcKer). Most of you all know that. When I don't have anything to say to a person, I just don't say anything. Silence. Nada. I don't start rumors about others, and don't spread things around that shouldn't be spread around. People deserve their privacy, and unfortunately in a field like Police/Fire/Rescue... secrets/privacy and gossip are best friends.
While I don't approve of it, I really don't care if you talk about myself and my best friend. If you have an issue with one of us or both of us, for godsakes tell us, and don't go spreading shit around. It's immature. I don't know if you know what it's like to find a friend that you can tell anything (and everything... lol)... but when you do, it's an amazing thing. I guess that most people poke fun at situations like this because they do not know what it's like and haven't ever experienced being in a friendship like it. The rest of ya'll... i dunno.
I just know that rumor-spreading has gotten to a point that is way out of hand... and that ya'll need to know that Amanda and I... we don't take buLLshit. (there, there's your LL).
And another thing. I've been reading this book that Kelly gave Amanda and she gave me called "He's not that Into You"... and it is so true. If I had read it earlier it may have opened my eyes to things that were not working. It probably would have saved me from getting hurt again this summer. And this Spring. And every other relationship that I have been in. Dating is truly like a dance. Partners switch, and it's the same basic thing... that is until you find the perfect partner who knows how to sweep you off your feet and into your future. The one with whom you cannot dance without.
If you find him for me let me know...
:: posted by Laura, 20:03
