The OLD FiReCrAcKeR

Had a fun morning introducing Chad to the wonders of dry run/kephart run trail/saltshed trails/rawley springs... and then to G & H's (lol)... we had a great time. I love doing things like that... :--D hehehe... I couldn't ask for anyone better. It's wierd how things work themselves out when you would least expect them to... anyways, we were almost back to broadway when my cell phone rang... and it was my Dr...

Well... I went to the Dr. for some tests last week, and they don't call you back unless something comes back abnormal/wrong with them. Needless to say, today I get a phone call from my Dr. wanting to set a follow-up test and appointment to see how "abnormal" the cells I have in my body are. Then they're going to do a biopsy to see if they're malignant or not.

Why am I scared about this this time?? I've been through this before and had outpatient surgery that determined that nothing was wrong... but there's some wierd feeling that i can't explain about this... and I am scared... I don't know what to do.

Oh well... i need to get some rest before work tonight, and I don't know how I will being like this. I just wish that I had my best friend here next to me to hug and comfort me... (not that I don't want a guy here... because i have one that i love... just that I miss that with my best friend being we both have guys now we're always talking to them... or with them... i dunno how to describe it) Oh well... :-/

I'm really going to try to get some sleep now... work tonight and then tomorrow, then off until sunday unless I get called in or there is OT on wed/thurs. G00dnight/day....